I thought you were more than just a shield.
Okay I actually think this little scene is hella important. We all know HYDRA did all kinds of experiments on him before Steve found him. Who’s to say they didn’t experiment with wiping memories as well ? They probably already started all kinds of experiments related to the Winter Soldier on him.
See how Bucky’s rambling at the beginning ? It’s like he’s trying really hard to remember who he is. He keeps repeating numbers and his name like it’s something he remembers but he doesn’t know what it means, he doesn’t know it’s him.
Then when Steve shows up he doesn’t recognise him at first. It actually takes him a good couple of seconds before he remembers who Steve is. And with remembering Steve, he also remembers himself because Steve is part of him. I’m going to curl up under the blankets and cry myself to sleep now.
Just to make everyone’s pain even worse: Bucky’s not quite rambling here. This is an anti-interrogation technique. US Soldiers are taught that when they become prisoners of war and are questioned, they should only state their name, rank, service number (the number on the dog tag) and date of birth. It is a tactic used to help avoid answering the questions they’re asking you, and in popular culture it’s usually seen in scenes where political prisoners are being tortured.
So this scene isn’t Bucky just rambling and holding on to his identity, not quite. But he was put in a position where all he could do to survive was methodically repeat his name, rank, service number and DOB over and over again—sticking to his training—to the point where he wasn’t even fully aware of his surroundings. This breaks my heart because it means that he was probably tortured and held out using this method.
that girl you saw crying today? she was crying over bucky barnes.